Tomorrow morning at 8:30 will mark one week since I submitted my resignation from my current reading specialist position. It was not a decision made lightly or easily. I have a lot invested in that elementary school and the reading program there. I have days of happiness for the new journey ahead, days of sadness for the program I'll leave behind and days questioning whether or not I made the right choice.
I've told you before that I admire my siblings for the paths they've chosen and that I believe they are in professions tailored to their personalities. I wonder at times if I'm tailored to teach. I've wondered if I should explore other professions, or expand my current profession. Should I have been a speech pathologist? Should I have been a school psychologist? Should I have stayed in the classroom rather than specializing in reading? I imagine everyone goes through phases in life wondering if they made the right choices. Through all of the questions, however, I am dedicated and passionate about what I do. I also possess a work ethic that allows me to be successful.
Many times in the last few years I've wondered what signs everyone else saw that I missed. I often want to ask where were the stops that offered marriage and family? I missed those. Where did you find that confidence and self-assurance? I must have been absent the day those were handed out. How did you learn so much about __________ (fill-in-the-blank)? That wasn't in my course of study. If you had asked me in high school or college where I would be in ten years I would not have pictured this. That's not bad necessarily -- if I could predict the future I would have a totally different line of work -- but it does cause me to be reflective and pensive. I've wondered many times over the years how I ended up where I am, but in my new efforts to view life as a journey, I've decided I've not ended up anywhere, I've just stopped over for a while and now it's time to move on.
Well put! I believe I have felt that way before and on some days maybe still do. I know that great things are in store for you both professionally and personally. Having the courage is the first step...and we both know you have what it takes to make it work after that. I think realizing that you've stopped over for too long can be very eye opening, because it gives you the idea of "Well, what now?" That feeling can be both exhilerating and scary, but the best rides often are. The benefit to your personal life at this time is that you have nothing hinging on your choices from here on. That opens the door to all possiblities. I say, dream big, make it happen, and the rest will follow.
ReplyDeleteLove to you, my friend!
Tiffany